In the past few weeks we have had 10 dogs enter the
rescue. It has been so hectic that
blogging definitely got kicked to the curb as the needs of dogs and kids
grew. I can’t say I would ever recommend
14 dogs at one time. At one point I had
17 in the van as I moved dogs from South to North. We have brought in many new
reps and working on getting a few more.
This has become a huge hunk of my life to say the least. I knew I had met the two ends of my rope as
it was tightening around my neck, I have to move dogs. I have never been one to take on a responsibility
and then pass it on to someone else but this is just what I have had to
do. I feel guilty, overwhelmed and
completely incompetent. I had
to come to that moment when I had to say I can’t do this anymore and I did not
like it at all. So now I have to search myself to find out what could I have been thinking. Reality sucks some times and this is one of
them. I had to force myself to do what I thought I never would. Now the folks
that are taking on the fostering of my dogs are great and very capable so that
is not my problem. It is to start something I can’t finish. I feel like I gave
up or something. My friends have been there to reassure me and comfort me
through this time and never told me to suck it up and get over it. That’s what
I call a friend.
I never knew the hooligans played such a huge part in my
life until they were gone. I find myself waiting
for them to come racing down the stairs or wrestling on the bed as it move
across the floor from their hardy play. I had to watch them like you would two
three year old children. They filled
every crevice of my life and now I feel like part of myself is gone. Letting them go to a new foster home was like
letting 10 dogs go at one time. I never knew what an impact it was having on me
till it was gone. They have left a huge whole here, although I do now have time
to do some things that I could not do while they were here, it’s not the same.
It has been such a trip having them here I am not sure I will have anything to
blog about. Life sure is quite now. But
it only takes one e-mail or one phone call to fill it right back so for now I
will enjoy a break from Chaos.
Hey Superwoman, I'm glad you finally agreed to accept some help! There aren't many people who could handle so many dogs at once, especially with those 2 hooligan boys in the mix. I was almost expecting you to say that you decided to adopt those 2 monkeys by the end of your post!
ReplyDeleteI had intertained the thought a couple of times of adopting them but they would find a way to nock that thought straight from my head. LOL but I do miss them
ReplyDeleteEveryone has a limit to what they can handle. It's a sign of strength, not weakness, to step up and say, "This is it, I need help. It is all for the good of the dogs, and it is still for the good of the dogs when you send them to someone better able to help THESE dogs right NOW.
ReplyDeleteGood for you, Sue.